Monday, October 28, 2013
冲上云霄~
Lately, i watch this series and i am so addicted to it. When i watching this series, i saw an airport and it reminds me of them again. Airport is the place for people to achieve their dream and also the place where they have to leave each other ( family, friend and etc) to further their studies at oversea. We can see a lot of situation that happen in the airport such like people crying of have to leave their family. Besides, also got people happy when they saying goodbye to their love ones. I cry when i watch the girl have to say goodbye to her loves one and their relationship already changed and they will not be together again. Sometime we cannot predict what will happen in the future. But no matter what the decision we make, we must not regret about it. Instead of regret about the past, why not we waste our time to invent our future? It's right, the fate is already fixed but most of the fate is in our hand. It's depends on how we invent and appreciate it~
過去的不強求， 要走的不挽留
“過去的不強求
要走的不挽留”
最近对这句词的感触很深。 一直以来，也许是我太强求了， 太执着于人，事，物。 对于友情和爱情很重感情的我终于好像就快放手了。过去就让它过去吧，不要一直怀恋以前的回忆而忘记向前进。没有固定的友情或爱情是会长久的。 缘来缘去，好聚好散。 既然如果我们的缘已尽，就算再怎么强求也没用。这只会让彼此感到很累。所以，要是注定了你们要走，我也不会再强迫自己挽留你们。这些都是无常，就是这些让人都很犹豫和引起烦恼。烦恼都是由自己的思想所造成的。但这并不代表只要你逃避，就不会有烦恼。 正确的方式是面对它，处理它与放下它。
要走的不挽留”
最近对这句词的感触很深。 一直以来，也许是我太强求了， 太执着于人，事，物。 对于友情和爱情很重感情的我终于好像就快放手了。过去就让它过去吧，不要一直怀恋以前的回忆而忘记向前进。没有固定的友情或爱情是会长久的。 缘来缘去，好聚好散。 既然如果我们的缘已尽，就算再怎么强求也没用。这只会让彼此感到很累。所以，要是注定了你们要走，我也不会再强迫自己挽留你们。这些都是无常，就是这些让人都很犹豫和引起烦恼。烦恼都是由自己的思想所造成的。但这并不代表只要你逃避，就不会有烦恼。 正确的方式是面对它，处理它与放下它。
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Mix feeling
Yesterday, i brought my juniors went to Jalan Pasar to buy electronic component and ask for guidance for her project. I know the feeling when you feel hopeless when there is no one else who can help you or guide you during the progress of final year project (FYP). Because of that reason, i sacrifice my sleeping time to wake up earlier to bring them there. After that when she mentioned yun yi they also got joined our annual camp. At that moment, i really have no special feeling even i know she did that to attract me. I not sure whether i change or they changed until i really tired of this kind of friendship?
Since they came back to Malaysia, they didn't contact me at all even through facebook. This really make me upset at first. Slowly, i used to this kind of situation. Even US friend online also they didn't chat with me. I am the one always find them and chat. Just when they have problem and doubt, they only will come to find me. Sometime i really don't know what they treat me as? I don't mind to become trash can but sometime i want to find people to chat with to release out everything, they always busy and seldom reply. This makes me not dare to disturb them. But when they have problem, i sure will be there for them and try hard to solve their problem.
Recently, i don't feel like want to facebook. I really tired of those things. Yup, when i saw them online, i feel like wanted to chat with them but i not dare to disturb them since they always busy with their studies. I miss them almost everyday but what can do? The life still goes on. Maybe just me only miss them, they never miss me like how i miss them. I tired of friendship and love. Where to find friend who really always be there for you when you need them? Five years of friendship finally changed. Even i really want to ask them come to join my convocation but i not dare and don't want to force them. Perhaps i can face the convocation naturally. Maybe that time many people will take photo together in one gang or one group.Maybe in the convocation is the last time we will meet each other. Everyone has their own direction and different way to go. Every moment in uniten will be in my mind forever, no matter happy or upset incident. I really envy those who have good housemates and stay until end of the semester. I hope i also can be like them but got one time i chased out by my housemates. I have no one to blame, just can blame myself of being stupid and not clever like others who always got the good result. Seriously, until today i still not yet ready for my convocation, i don't know how to face it naturally.
Since they came back to Malaysia, they didn't contact me at all even through facebook. This really make me upset at first. Slowly, i used to this kind of situation. Even US friend online also they didn't chat with me. I am the one always find them and chat. Just when they have problem and doubt, they only will come to find me. Sometime i really don't know what they treat me as? I don't mind to become trash can but sometime i want to find people to chat with to release out everything, they always busy and seldom reply. This makes me not dare to disturb them. But when they have problem, i sure will be there for them and try hard to solve their problem.
Recently, i don't feel like want to facebook. I really tired of those things. Yup, when i saw them online, i feel like wanted to chat with them but i not dare to disturb them since they always busy with their studies. I miss them almost everyday but what can do? The life still goes on. Maybe just me only miss them, they never miss me like how i miss them. I tired of friendship and love. Where to find friend who really always be there for you when you need them? Five years of friendship finally changed. Even i really want to ask them come to join my convocation but i not dare and don't want to force them. Perhaps i can face the convocation naturally. Maybe that time many people will take photo together in one gang or one group.Maybe in the convocation is the last time we will meet each other. Everyone has their own direction and different way to go. Every moment in uniten will be in my mind forever, no matter happy or upset incident. I really envy those who have good housemates and stay until end of the semester. I hope i also can be like them but got one time i chased out by my housemates. I have no one to blame, just can blame myself of being stupid and not clever like others who always got the good result. Seriously, until today i still not yet ready for my convocation, i don't know how to face it naturally.
Thursday, October 24, 2013
healthy issue
Recently, my body is not in a good condition. I easily to get tired and dizzy. If you ask me the reason why, i also don't know how to answer. Last time seriously tension with the customer who keep omplained about the circuit board. After working, i drink teh tarik. I went to see chinese doctor and gone through some treatment, all the doctor said i cannot drink tea even teh tarik as well. I don't know what is the actual reason.
Until that day only i feel different after took teh tarik. After i drank it, i feel very tired, sleepy and my heart beeping quite fast. Then, i start to feel dizzy. Last time i still can drink it and it is one of my favouite drink. Everything happens in a sudden. I can't see anything changes in my body also. I just know nowadays i have a lot of things that cannot eat. Sometime when i thinking back again, i am wondering why last time i am so healthy but now not so. I did regret why from the start, i didn't take care of myself well and that's why will cause so many problem happen.
Even today when i work, i feel very tired and dizzy.I am thinking if like this kind of company already like this, how about other company which is more stressful than this. I not dare to think about it.
Until that day only i feel different after took teh tarik. After i drank it, i feel very tired, sleepy and my heart beeping quite fast. Then, i start to feel dizzy. Last time i still can drink it and it is one of my favouite drink. Everything happens in a sudden. I can't see anything changes in my body also. I just know nowadays i have a lot of things that cannot eat. Sometime when i thinking back again, i am wondering why last time i am so healthy but now not so. I did regret why from the start, i didn't take care of myself well and that's why will cause so many problem happen.
Even today when i work, i feel very tired and dizzy.I am thinking if like this kind of company already like this, how about other company which is more stressful than this. I not dare to think about it.
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Friends...
When I saw the marking in the calendar, actually it just about two months but it feels like years.I didn't deny that almost everyday I will miss them. From the day I sent them off until today, I still waiting for them to come back to Malaysia. They just need to study for three years. Last time my friends study at uk for about 5 years and now they already in Malaysia.Even so, I feel like our relationship already change. Maybe they changed and I still the same. No matter how, they still my friends. Because of them, today only I can be the person who you saw now.
Sometime when saw them online, wanted to chat with them but scare that will interrupt their time.
Besides, I also want to Skype with them. The purpose of wanted to Skype is to see how they doing there or just want to listen to their voice. It sounds like weird but this is what person who have strong feeling feels. I think they never know. One day, A and I very miss her and wanted to Skype with her.Due to she lazy to use computer, then she asked is it okay if just use voice call. That day, I thought we can have a chance to have a short conversation together but I don't understand what is in her mind. End up, we waiting until both of us fall asleep. The feeling is quite disappointed. Even you are busy with homework, you can use your time on Facebook but cannot use your time to Skype with us? I persuading myself by thinking maybe you have your own reason and I trying to understand you as I said I want to be a understandable person.
Between, I also wanted to Skype with someone else. Got one time I also wait until fall asleep. One day, I don't know why I will press video call. That is the first time video call with her. I very happy that she showed me the environment there. The environment is damn good, I think I also fall in love with it. I wish that I can lie on the green grass and calculating the amount of the star or just see the sky. Every time when I am in bad mood, I hope I got place to do so.Glad to see that they live there happily and got new friends there,haha...
Sometime when saw them online, wanted to chat with them but scare that will interrupt their time.
Besides, I also want to Skype with them. The purpose of wanted to Skype is to see how they doing there or just want to listen to their voice. It sounds like weird but this is what person who have strong feeling feels. I think they never know. One day, A and I very miss her and wanted to Skype with her.Due to she lazy to use computer, then she asked is it okay if just use voice call. That day, I thought we can have a chance to have a short conversation together but I don't understand what is in her mind. End up, we waiting until both of us fall asleep. The feeling is quite disappointed. Even you are busy with homework, you can use your time on Facebook but cannot use your time to Skype with us? I persuading myself by thinking maybe you have your own reason and I trying to understand you as I said I want to be a understandable person.
Between, I also wanted to Skype with someone else. Got one time I also wait until fall asleep. One day, I don't know why I will press video call. That is the first time video call with her. I very happy that she showed me the environment there. The environment is damn good, I think I also fall in love with it. I wish that I can lie on the green grass and calculating the amount of the star or just see the sky. Every time when I am in bad mood, I hope I got place to do so.Glad to see that they live there happily and got new friends there,haha...
Works
Today, again the customer complained about the circuit board. Why keep asking us to explain on the board. This is common sense. If something spoil, even you use glue or something else, the crack will still be there and one day the thing will break and no longer can use already. Seriously, before I repair I already know this thing will happen, that's why I don't want to do. But customer keep pushing me and some more cc to boss and madam. This really makes me so stressful.
The lucky thing is madam didn't scold me, maybe she also expects like this kind of incident will happen one day.When I facing this kind of problem, the most scary is boss and madam will scold me but luckily not.She also finding counter measure to solve this issue. I don't know what will happen after she leaving to US. She is more expert in electrical field. I scare in the future I have no people to refer to and ask about the knowledge of the circuit. But the current thing that I can do is patient and do whatever I can. Sometime, I felt boring because always doing the same thing and sometime suddenly I will compare with other friend who also working too. I think they must be learn more compared to me and more expert. Nowadays very hard to get job. Requirement for all company also the same which is need at least 1 year experience. I not sure whether I can work until 1 year or not and not dare to think about the future.
The electric field that I interested in is something about sensor, PCB design by using software and so on. Hopefully I can design PCB and know how to draw mechanical part by using autocad. Nowadays all these software is very important, no matter whether you are mechanical or electrical background. The more you know, the more valuable you are. I have to learn all by myself and I hope that one day I can become a successful engineer who is knowledgeable. perhaps the day will come.
The lucky thing is madam didn't scold me, maybe she also expects like this kind of incident will happen one day.When I facing this kind of problem, the most scary is boss and madam will scold me but luckily not.She also finding counter measure to solve this issue. I don't know what will happen after she leaving to US. She is more expert in electrical field. I scare in the future I have no people to refer to and ask about the knowledge of the circuit. But the current thing that I can do is patient and do whatever I can. Sometime, I felt boring because always doing the same thing and sometime suddenly I will compare with other friend who also working too. I think they must be learn more compared to me and more expert. Nowadays very hard to get job. Requirement for all company also the same which is need at least 1 year experience. I not sure whether I can work until 1 year or not and not dare to think about the future.
The electric field that I interested in is something about sensor, PCB design by using software and so on. Hopefully I can design PCB and know how to draw mechanical part by using autocad. Nowadays all these software is very important, no matter whether you are mechanical or electrical background. The more you know, the more valuable you are. I have to learn all by myself and I hope that one day I can become a successful engineer who is knowledgeable. perhaps the day will come.
Monday, October 21, 2013
Flower-hearted
People said if you love someone, you will accept all his or her weakness.Lately, I found a big weakness in him which I not really can accept. From he asked me about phone, I get to know that he is really flower hearted. At first, want to know the price for S3. After gave the price, he said actually he wanted to buy tablet 10.1 third generation. After that, asked for Note 3. Same thing, after gave price, again he said actually he likes Note 4. Said no money to buy but wanted to buy so many thing. I keep asking supplier and I think supplier also wanted to scold me already. I really want to scold him some bad words. This is not the first time. When he wanted to rent house at my house also same. At first, said everything okay and want to stay outside but yet still appeal for apartment. Seriously I have nothing to say. Furthermore he said he will pay for the first month for the rental even though if he got the hostel. Seriously pissed off with this case. Anyway, it is good too, at least I know he is flower hearted and I think I can sure my feeling towards him is not love, just maybe because I touched by something that he did to me. I really touch that he went to bus station at 6 and pick me up, gave me present and treat me dinner.
He is my friend, thus I point out to him about his weakness because I really cannot stand with it. Now at least I know that we just normal friend after doubt for some time.
He is my friend, thus I point out to him about his weakness because I really cannot stand with it. Now at least I know that we just normal friend after doubt for some time.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Confusing
This time I come back is to make my mind clear about what I want to be in the future. Besides, I also want to testing my feeling towards him. Since I come back, he keeps fb chat and SMS me.From a series, i got to know that love and need is two difference things.I not sure I really got feeling towards him or just used to the life within him.Till today I still doubt~
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