Sharing

I would like to share with you all here...Today,i learnt many thing from the dharma class.Teacher Zhen Gang share some story with us which i find it was quite meaningful.I think this story also related with me.
One day,mother ask first son go to buy oil but at the halfway her son fall down and the oil just left half only.When reach home,he tell his mother that i fell down but i still can keep half of the oil.Again,mother ask second son go to buy oil.He is also fall down but he is more negative thinking.He fell down and the oil also just left half only.He very sad and think himself is useless and angry at himself that he alway not doing good in everything.I think i am this type.The third son is more to positive thinking.Although he also fall down and the oil just half only but he tell his mother that he will do better than before,be careful and will not fall down again.
If i learn the spirit from the third son,i think i will not upset and feel disappointed again.This story tell us that we must face problem with positive thinking.Positive thinking is important to determine our manner.

unforgetable moment

最近，有很多感触。。。这次放假真的发生很多不愉快的事。当我看到我婆婆的样子，我禁不住流泪。没想到那一通电话是她跟我讲的最后一句话。要是我知道那是最后一通电话，我一定会跟她说很多话。人生真的很奇妙。平时都没有病，但却突然患上严重的病。虽然知道婆婆的命不长了但是当看到她的病情有点好转，又让我们有希望。前一天，她还是还好好的，真没想到隔天她的病情变得更严重。之后，就离开了。当看见她想说话却不能够说话，真的很痛苦。我觉得我们的家有遗传高血压。我的妈妈也有，再加上目前的情况，我真的好怕。我不想再看到有不愉快的事发生了，累了。从当中，我体会不少。我们不知道何时会离开，也许就在明天我们就离开，所以要好好的珍惜每一份每一秒和珍惜眼前人。如此，我们死也不会有遗憾了。我现在唯一能做的就是加倍努力，不再让妈妈失望。我真的很想呈现最好的让她看。我也真的好希望有机会对她说：“娘，令儿终于成功做到了。”
有时当我失落时，真的好想痛苦一场，但是却哭不出来。有时也会想得到别人的关心但却不想别人为我担心，为我操心。我不想在别人的面前现出我脆搦的样子。我不喜欢别人为我担心。我也不知道我要的是什么

My feeling

最近，有很多感触。。。这次放假真的发生很多不愉快的事。当我看到我婆婆的样子，我禁不住流泪。没想到那一通电话是她跟我讲的最后一句话。要是我知道那是最后一通电话，我一定会跟她说很多话。人生真的很奇妙。平时都没有病，但却突然患上严重的病。虽然知道婆婆的命不长了但是当看到

lesson

Recently,my leg feel pain and easily to get tired.This is because i fell down in the camp.Since i fell down,i cannot stand for long time and need to walk properly.The thing that make me most scare is i can't play sport like last time.I hope i still can play badminton.It is my favourite sport.By playing badminton,.I really hope that i will fully recover and can walk smoothly.Sometimes,i will regret why i didn't follow mother's advice and join in the camp.If i hear her advice,then all those things will not happen on me.But i really learn many thing from the camp.I should blame myself.When i playing the tarzan jump,suppose open my eyes but i close my eyes to cross over the water.This is my false...

Training camp...part 2

The day before we play extreme games,i am wondering about the challenging games that we will play on the next day.Will i success to pass through all?Is it something will happen on me?At that moment,many question mark appear in my mind.The day finally come.Before we play all those extreme games,it is a Buddhist hymns section.We all were so happy^_^...I very enjoy that moment.After that,we had lunch and preparing for the extreme games,that is flying fox and wall climbing.We play the flying fox first.I feel a bit scare that time because i got acrophobia.But when i know my partner is yun yi,then my heart feel more better.I also feel weird.I think maybe because she always encourage me not to be scare.This make me think of all the games that we played at sunway lagoon.I also scare to play all those extreme games but after yun yi said some word to persuade me,i feel better even scare also.Finally,i success to play all the games at sunway lagoon except tomahawk.Yun yi,thank you so much.Now is our turn to play flying fox.My leg feel no energy and speechless.When yun yi and i said 1,2,3,we suppose go down already.But after i said 1,2,3,my leg still at the same position.Yun yi can feel that i scare to jump,so she also didn't jump.She persuade me and ask me don't think so much and try to enjoy the process.Then,i try my best and finally we success.But yun yi so pity,i hold her very tight,and i think she not really enjoy because she can't breath well.Yun yi,really sorry.

When i stand on the chair at behind there,the chair is turn 360 degree,haha...i ask my leg stop vibrate but still vibrate.The moral value that i learnt from this game is don't just say only,need to take action too.After that,we play wall climbing.Before play this game,i already ask the trainer if i fail to climb even one stone,how?Then,the person just smile only.I observe how they climb and support them.When we climb,got trainer stand at beside and try to break down our confidence.Now is my turn.As i guess,i really fail.The trainer ask me just give up and don't waste other's time.I don't want to easily give up and i try again but still can't.Finally,i choose to give up because i really can't make it and i also don't want to waste other's time.At that moment,i feel i am useless and i can't stop the tear drop from my eyes.After for a while,john persuade me and tell me that he will help me climb until top later.I really feel touch when i hear that.Nobody had ever tell me like that kind of word.I feel shock and i am happy he as my friend.He really success climb till the top and i am happy for him.John,thank you.After that,we keep going to play other games such as tarzan jump and so on.During the games,yun yi stay beside me and encourage me.I thought i can success pass through all those games.During the tarzan jump,she also teach me the way to cross over.After that,i got more confidence to cross over it.I try my best and i thought i reach ground already,so i let the rope.Maybe of too confident,so i fail and fall in the water.I worry because my leg no feeling.Yun yi,yi wen and john help me a lot.

After this games,got other activity.I cannot walk properly,so can't join.Yun yi also didn't go but i not sure whether she want to accompany or she need to wake up early on the next day.She said she scare will be very tired and can't wake up early.In the hall,just left me and her.We share about the experience that we gain from the games.She said she also thought that she can't climb until the top but she tell herself that she sure can do it.Finally she success tob make it.I really admire her spirit.After that,i go to bath and just left her alone.I thought she will not scare of being alone.When i bathing,i hear someone was singing and i know is yun yi's voice.Her voice very sweet and i am really enjoy it.When i come out from the bathroom,i saw her slept already.Then,i just know that she scare and sing buddhist hymns to reduce her fear.I feel really sorry to her because i didn't take care of her and accompany her.If i know,i won't go to bath and accompany her till she sleep first.

The third day morning is the sharing time with rev.We all share moral values from all those games with rev.Different people got different experience and moral value.I learnt many thing from their sharing.Then,till my turn.I also share with rev same as what i write at the top.I tell rev that i feel i am useless because i alway fail.After that,rev got said some word that make me speechless,that is "you are so proud,you cannot fail?"This word make me think of all the things that i fail to make in my life.Actually,my ambition is forensic but i can't make it because my result not so good..Rev also said that跌倒就要勇敢地爬起来.I really agree with what rev said.After the camp,chuan fang got told me that rev said first time rev see me,she know that i loss of confidence.Tony also got told me that i too rely on friend,i know what he means.I also agree with him,i should not too rely on others.I learnt many lesson from the camp and i will remember the moment until forever and ever.

Training camp...Part 1

Long time already i want to write about the training camp that i had last time but don't have free time.First of all,this camp really meaningful for me.From all the games,i saw myself.At first,i can't adapt myself with the environment.Maybe i scare of all those thing but i try to adapt.Tony as a leader.He give us job.Some people build tent,some people go to jungle find wood.After we done build the tent,then we were waiting for them who go to find wood.Finally,they come back and their leg got leech and bleeding.Even their leg is bleeding but they seem very happy.I also don't know why,haha...After done all the job,we were preparing for the lunch.We use fire to cook.At begin,we feel hard to light up the fire because we still don't know the skill.Practice make perfect,we practice every day and finally we knew the skill already.The first game that we playes is rope skipping.I don't know how to play but yen got taught us the way to jump.The instruction for this game is all the group member must success to jump continously.If any group member fail,we need to play again.I am the one that alway fail but i tell myself that i will never give up and finally i success.I feel very happy even the feet very pain.This game is the games that cause me proud of myself among all the games.The moral value for this game is cooperation is important between the group member and we should encourage each other.When i was kid,i alway see people play this game and ask myself why they can do but i can't do. After game section,it's is my favourite section,that is buddhist hyms section,hehe.We sang many song.I love to sing buddhist hyms and old song.Their lyric meaningful,sometimes will talk about our life... 就是这温暖的手让我觉得温暖和感受到真诚的友谊。她不断地鼓励着我。谢谢你，韵怡。我会一直记得你的教诲。

surprise~_~

After the exam,i will go back hometown but i still don't know when to go back.Lecture told me that my test 2 paper lost,then i need to do make-up test.The make-up test's date and time also has been set already,that is on monday.But before the c pro exam,i had received message from lecture and she said that my paper was found.That time i don't know whether i should be happy or not...Anyway,i should be happy just right because can go back earlier,hehe.My mother told me that my sister got job already and will start to work on sunday.After i heard it,i feel a bit sad but feel happy for my sister because finally she got job already.Then i buy ticket and i had decided the date when to go back.
I want to give my mother surprise.So,i didn't tell my mother that when will i go back.I just tell my sister only and we plan together.My mother alway call me because she want to know when i just go back.I still didn't tell her.Finally,i reach my hometown.when i had a lunch with my sister,my mother call me again and i said now having lunch.She still don't know that i came back,haha...After lunch,we plan go to her working place and make her feel shocked.When she saw me,she feel shocked and nearly cry.I like that moment and i will remember it until forever.

Exam week

Recently is exam week.I am so stress and every night will feel hungry because i cannot eat too full for dinner.If too full,will feel sleepy.When i feel stress,i will eat a lot of food.I know this way cannot reduce stress but i still can't control and i hope i can change this habit next time.The last exam is c programming.I see time wrongly,i thought is exam at 9 a.m but actually is at 3p.m.That's why i feel weird when i reach library but didn't see any of my friend.All just like older than me,hehe^_^I wake up at 5 something to study.i scare not enough sleep will become blur in the exam.Luckily,evon let me rest at her house for a while,then i just can fully concentrate on the exam.It's also good that i see the time wrongly because i can finish study more earlier and can recall back the previous chapter.I had try my best in c pro but i didn't expect too high also,perhaps got at least B.I scare will got c because the credit hour is 4.It is the highest credit among all the subject.After the exam,by right i should be happy but i had some weird feeling.I think my time management is not good.i hope i can pass this sem and manage my time well in next sem.As yun yi said,we should try our best in every test and exam,don't always hope that will got 2nd chance.We must appreciate the chance that we have,put more effort and try our best on it...

Today,i read my friend's blog...she seems like not really happy at uk.I am sad to hear that she is not happy.Friend,i hope that you will get well soon...may you be well and happy^.^gambate,i will alway stand beside you...