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  Sorry for who those visit my blog.I know most of my blog just talk about bad thing.I am trying to write something which can make you all happy after visit my blog.Sadly,i will write about bad thing again.Today whole day,i felt very down.I thinking why i can't be clever like other.Other people can understand but why i still can't get the concept.I am trying to understand but lecturer ask me don't ever memorize.I really trying my best not to memorize the concept but trying to understand.I don't understand why i tried hard to understand but still can't really understand about the concept.I almost cry after the class but i ask myself for what you cry?Tell myself that i can't cry,i need to be stronger.
  Besides that,Electrical machine and drives is also one of the subject that make me confuse.Sometime i not understand and ask lecturer but she didn't get what i mean.I don't know why everything suddenly become  like this.Last time,i was easily absorb what lecturer said but why nowadays change already?Am i old already or in the process to become old.I still remember that the doctor said it maybe related to my blood circulation and body condition.I still remember since secondary school,i always teacher or lecturer question but now i become quiet in the class and didn't ask question.Am i feel shy?I not suppose be like this,i really don't know what happen to me???
  People got ask what happen to me but i just keep in my heart.I don't want people worry about me,just want to make them happy.One more reason is if i tell,i scare i will cry in front of my friend.