宁静的夜晚

    在这宁静和寂寞的晚上，我突然间想你。。。一转眼间，你的离去已有六年。时间过得真快。我想我又再次令你失望吧。今天我的试卷相当容易，我target A,可是因为我的脑袋想得很复杂，结果就是那一题错了。其实，那个问题真的很direct，可是却不知到我为什么会想得那么遥远。我很想找人谈天，可是每个人都很忙，最近，觉得跟朋友的距离疏远了。就算我找人谈天，已经无法改变了，可是只希望能把心里话说出来。只要那颗石头还在我心里，我就无法专心读别个科目。真的很对不起，我想我不曾让你为我光荣吧，只会让你失望。对不起。真的很想念你。希望你一切安好。放心，我会好好的过日子，我答应自己我不会轻易放弃。就算这条路真的很难走，我还是会坚持走下去，不会再有不好的想法。你也要好好过生活~

  最近的我有点压力。我很想让自己的成绩进步，但是这些带给我很大的压力。Test 1 的成绩还不错可是我就在那几分钟高兴。我很怕下一张的paper是否也能保持还是会一落千丈，我当时的心情就只有害怕。我也很想活在当下，可是我的心却做不到。新年过后，有midterm test...它是蛮难的一个科目。我的theory和understanding是比较差，所以我需要更多时间去了解它的concept.这考试就在昨天考，lecture跟我们讲theory占了整份考卷的30%,我真的很害怕自己考不好。当我翻开考卷时，发现考卷并不是我所想象的那么难，有点高兴。在高兴同时，我希望自己能score这份考卷。但是，当我有了这种想法，压力就开始来了。如果没有期望或期望很低，就没有推动力和成绩就不是很好；相反的，期望越高，跌倒会比平常来的更痛。今天朋友说我应该是有点做错了，当时的我真的很烦，连老师都看得出来。我真的很想把过去式的东西放下，好好把握这一刻，但是有时还是会在烦恼里打滚。放下是件不容易做到的事，可是我希望自己能够慢慢学习放下。。。

PPOU friend~

 I know her from the meditation class.She very funny and very smart,under JPA scholarship.Recently,ICE got organized event about  go green and she also involved in that.She involved in paint.She told me i was her first customer.She said she not good in paint.I want she believe in herself,so however i also ask her paint for me.At first,she lack of confidence.I told her you never try,how you know you can't do it,trust yourself that you can do it.After that,she got confidence and i like the pattern that she draw very much.Through the dharma class,i know that we should give confidence,happy and hope to other people but that one just theoretical.That day,i feel like i succeed to do practical for it.The feeling is very different,hard to describe.Once you try,then you will know.希望自己能够给人希望，给人信心，给人快乐~

My Friends...

  My friends from ucsi now having A level's exam.Sometime they will feel emo and get homesick when they study for their exam.I also feel pity for them.I hope that they can pass A level with flying colour.I also don't know where they will go after the A level but i just want to appreciate every moment with them.Sometime,i think i am too over but i can't control myself.For instant,when they getting homesick or emo,then i feel like go there to persuade them and make them happy.I know all this will not forever but i also can't control myself from think of them.They very friendly and nice to chat and gather with them.Even i not really like to shopping but i like the feeling when go out with them and watch movie or sing k.Glad to know them and they very caring.Even the time gather with them is short but i really enjoy^_^

down...

  Sorry for who those visit my blog.I know most of my blog just talk about bad thing.I am trying to write something which can make you all happy after visit my blog.Sadly,i will write about bad thing again.Today whole day,i felt very down.I thinking why i can't be clever like other.Other people can understand but why i still can't get the concept.I am trying to understand but lecturer ask me don't ever memorize.I really trying my best not to memorize the concept but trying to understand.I don't understand why i tried hard to understand but still can't really understand about the concept.I almost cry after the class but i ask myself for what you cry?Tell myself that i can't cry,i need to be stronger.
  Besides that,Electrical machine and drives is also one of the subject that make me confuse.Sometime i not understand and ask lecturer but she didn't get what i mean.I don't know why everything suddenly become  like this.Last time,i was easily absorb what lecturer said but why nowadays change already?Am i old already or in the process to become old.I still remember that the doctor said it maybe related to my blood circulation and body condition.I still remember since secondary school,i always teacher or lecturer question but now i become quiet in the class and didn't ask question.Am i feel shy?I not suppose be like this,i really don't know what happen to me???
  People got ask what happen to me but i just keep in my heart.I don't want people worry about me,just want to make them happy.One more reason is if i tell,i scare i will cry in front of my friend.

Most memorable day^_^

  I think today is the last day i went out with them.Before this,we went to watch movie and eat dinner together.The only thing that i haven't do with them is sing k...Finally,today we got chance to sing k together.Thanks for give me chance to sing with you.We went to neway which is located opposite of leisure mall.There not same like green box and red box that i ever go.The price is quite expensive.I think the service also very bad and no buffet at lunch hour some more.Luckily,during afternoon just few people sing k,so we can sing k till 7pm.This is first time i sing k for about 6 hour.I really enjoy the process.Shock Hong has a good voice,like singer.I think she might be a singer someday.I like the feeling we sing k together.We sang old song like andy lau and the latest song as well.I felt so happy when go out with them.
  They will graduate soon and still don't know where will they proceed their degree yet.Even i feeling not so good but i still will wish them.I sure will be strong than before.Thanks a lot,my friend and so sorry cause you all waste money.Good Luck for your exam.I know all of you are smart student,so i believe that you all sure can do it.I really happy that have friend like you all.You all really bring a lot of joy and happiness for me.Hope that even next time our distance is far apart,but we still can keep in touch.Wish you all the best^_^

新生命^_^

         我们都好期待新生命的到来。每一次逛街，都会去婴儿的corner买些用品给将来出世的小baby.那时候，我才知道原来买婴儿的用品是多么开心的一件事啊。我最喜欢买的是袜子，觉得袜子是最可爱的。买袜子的时候，都会不禁的傻笑。朋友都会问我“你还好吗？”我只是哈哈大笑。20号是预产期。可是，我们等了好几天，依然没消息。这时让大家都替大嫂和baby担心。就在23号早上，二嫂终于感觉到肚子在痛了。二嫂一大清早就被推进产房里。我的哥哥也替他们母子俩担心。一方面是开心因为将要做爸爸了，另一方面又担心二嫂会受不了和万一baby有什么不测。直到下午，新生命终于来到这世界了。我变成姑姑了。欢迎您来到这世界。我们从下午等到晚上，二嫂终于从产房被推出来了。等了好几个小时，还以为有什么不测，真叫我们担心。
  我是负责守夜的。在那里，看到好多小婴儿和听到婴儿的哭声。此外，看到有些人被推进产房，出来的时候就有小婴儿陪在她身边。看着哥哥的baby,觉得他好cute.他的头发也比一般baby的头发多。从中，我也学习不少。原来医院是比较鼓励baby喝人奶，奶罐是不被批准的。此外，人奶只要收藏在冰箱里，不管多久，只要弄热就还可以再用。护士都会先检查baby是否有小便和大便，才能出院。这主要是确保baby的排泄系统都在好的状况里。baby有小便可是却没有大便。那时，好担心baby必须留院。二嫂因第一次做妈妈，所以什么都不知道。妈妈就说要让baby大便，就必须喂他喝水。果然很有效，baby终于大便了，哈哈。。。yeah,baby终于可以出院了。