unforgetable moment

我的心情

2011-12-08T09:16:00.000-08:00

最近的心情很不好。今天才刚考完test 2,又是做assignmentd和project的时候了。我还有很多东西要做，又要担心到底自己会不会找到工。找工的ｄｕｅ　ｄａｔｅ越来越靠近了，我就越来越紧张。身边所有的人都找到工了，就只剩下我还在等。我真的很伤心。我有兴趣的公司却淘汰我。心想成绩真的那么重要吗？难道成绩真的是一切吗？我真的很后悔，除了后悔还是后悔。我很讨厌自己为什么总是拿不到自己想要的东西。我真的对这样的情况厌倦了，ＡＲＧＨＨＨＨＨＨＨＨＨＨＨＨ！！！

那些年，我們一起追的女孩(預告浪漫版)

2011-11-11T17:05:00.000-08:00

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星光~

2011-11-11T10:36:00.000-08:00

转眼间，我参加菩提工作坊已有半年了。真的很感恩自己有机会学习佛法，学习唱佛曲的机会。老师们对我们都很好，真的很感动。虽然老师再忙，他们也会抽出时间教我们，对我们不离不弃。他们教我们很多方法去诠释每一首歌。今天是我们的毕业典礼，我们的主题曲是“你们是我的星光”。当我唱这首歌的时候，真的有很多画面浮现在我脑海里。例如：佛曲143的筹备，还有很多不同的表演。虽然练习的过程有点辛苦，但是当看到我们的效果蛮不错，还有能够跟大家分享佛法的好，真的还蛮感动的。那种感觉真的是难以形容。真的很高兴看到很多学长来支持我们，很有重温的感觉。谢谢你们一直的陪伴，陪伴我成长。你们真的教会了我很多。谢谢，感恩~

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无常

2011-07-13T02:50:00.000-07:00

最近过的生活会比较忙碌。可是在忙碌的生活中，我很高兴因为我在做的事是我喜欢的。我试着安排自己的时间，希望不会忽略到我的学业。我发觉到身边的朋友们都有自己的路要走，虽然距离美比以前这么近，可是你们永远都是我的朋友。有时我很想找你们一起唱k,看电影，逛逛街，打羽毛球或者吃宵夜，可是我们的时间都不一样。有时我空闲是，你们却很忙；有时你们空闲，可是我却很忙。我会慢慢适应这样的环境。我们的路不一样，虽然我们彼此的感情美没以前来得好，可是能够认识你们是我最大的福报。我真心祝福你们，希望你们能达到你们的梦想。希望我身边的朋友们做什么事都顺顺利利，远离痛苦，活在安详的生活。朋，我爱你们~

犹豫不决

2011-06-03T22:14:00.000-07:00

上个星期，有位老朋友突然sms问我有没有回家乡。其实我有点吓到，怎么突然间问我这种问题？后来，她告诉我她即将结婚了，就在下个星期五。她邀请我出席她的婚礼。我一时反应不过来，接到这样的消息，真的很惊讶。

她的x男友多到数不完，现任男友又很喜欢喝酒。没想到她的现任男友竟然是她的真命天子。我的考试也要到了，这么巧过了那个星期就是我的test 1。本来有想过要回，可是这么刚巧我在那天有replacement class.结婚是一辈子只有一次，如果没出席，那会好吗？考试固然重要，我正在筹备着。虽然如果我不能够参加你的婚礼，我也会在这里深深的祝福你。朋友，祝你幸福满，活在快乐与安详的生活当中~

男女之前

2011-04-20T22:07:00.000-07:00

经常聊天的人一定要看哦

1。当你收到“你干嘛呢？”实际上是想说“我想你了”

2。当你收到“呵呵”，多是没笑或者傻笑

3。但如果是“哈哈”“嘿嘿”或者“嘎嘎”，这时你打过去一定是在笑

4。说你“傻瓜”“笨蛋”其实是关心你，担心你，希望你照顾好自己

5。如果是问句结束，其实是希望能和你多聊一会儿

6。“哦”多半是在敷衍

7。但如果是“知道啦”“收到”“遵命”之类的则表示比较在意

8。有时劝你忙自己的，其实他口是心非

9。把他的傻事丢脸的或是失落的事告诉你，是希望你安慰他，开导他，甚至骂骂他

10。主动发给你，说明你在他心目中有一定的分量，一般人不喜欢和不在意的人罗嗦

11。如果给你起外号，是希望你可以记住他多一点

12。“我刚到”“我已经到家咯”说明进屋第一个想到的是你

13。“你到家了就告诉我一声啊”“你到家了没啊？”意思是我要你一定平安，我不许你有事

14。有时不会那么巧就错发给你，可能是他想发给你又实在没东西发，虽然这样很蠢

15。收到“转发2人会幸福哦”，是他觉得这条短信很有意思，但是又不忍心让你转发给10个人，就偷偷的把10改成了2

16。凡是那种“不转发就会不幸”诅咒性质的，他不是没有收到过，但是绝不会转发给你

17。有一阵你没有收到过ta的短信，但并不代表ta草稿箱里没有

18。如果可能，他晚上不关机就是因为你

女孩子20岁左右是她最美丽的。这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。

男孩子20左右的时候是他最暗淡的日子，这时什么都没有，没有事业。没有风度。不能独立又不想依赖，挣扎着彷徨着，寻找着自己的位置，所以如果一个女孩子在他20岁左右的时候遇见了与他，那一定要珍惜他，因为这个男孩子是最需要关爱和鼓励的时候。女孩只有陪他走过。男孩将会铭记终生。

Girl play piano with no finger on one hand

2011-04-13T08:16:00.000-07:00

when i watch this video,i feel like i really useless.Even she have no finger on her right hand but she can play the piano very well.I have perfect hand but because i feel like i can't play well and can't handle so i choose to give up.My teacher very strict,when i play wrongly,she straight away use the edge of ruler hit my finger.Whenever her mood is not good,she will hit my finger with more force.I still remember that one time since i was small after she hit my finger,i cry and my mother saw me cry.My mother said she also feel very hurt when my teacher hit my finger.I feel very sorry and regret that i give up last time and now i really want to learn and play piano very well but have no teacher.If the time can reverse,i think i will be patient and try to complete all the level.If last time i patient,i think now i can play all the song very well.Really regret and i just can learn to play piano through youtube only.

我的偶像

2011-04-13T07:36:00.000-07:00

你们应该不知道这些年来我最仰慕的偶像是蔡依林吧?他真的很敬业，一直用不同的方式挑战自己。最近才有时间追踪她的新闻。我发现她真的越来越进步了，不停地挑战自己。例如：她在小巨蛋的演唱会里，在高空搏命表演钢环现人字马，吊钢环，鞍马等等。之前，她都被人看扁，说她只是属于偶像派。现在，她证明给大家看她也是实力派的。演唱会前一天，彩排鞍马的时候，她跌倒和受重伤。虽然她很伤心，关在房间里一个人哭，但是她始终没放弃。我觉得她做这些不只是表现给大家看，而是想挑战自己，让大家看到全新的她。如果跌倒了要重新爬起来，真的是不容易做到的事。她很坚持和意志力很强，她真的很成功，如今变了天后。
谈到她的爱情，真的为她感到伤心。首先是跟周杰伦在一起，可是过了几年后却分手了。真的替她感到可惜。我还是认为她和周杰伦是绝配的。可是不管她跟谁在一起，只要是她喜欢的，我都会支持。希望她的男朋友能够好好的珍惜他们的感情，别让她再次受创伤。衷心希望她能够找到她自己的幸福。虽然她只是我的偶像，可是我当作她是我的朋友。希望她幸福，快乐与活在安详的生活中。

宁静的夜晚

2011-03-22T07:25:00.000-07:00

在这宁静和寂寞的晚上，我突然间想你。。。一转眼间，你的离去已有六年。时间过得真快。我想我又再次令你失望吧。今天我的试卷相当容易，我target A,可是因为我的脑袋想得很复杂，结果就是那一题错了。其实，那个问题真的很direct，可是却不知到我为什么会想得那么遥远。我很想找人谈天，可是每个人都很忙，最近，觉得跟朋友的距离疏远了。就算我找人谈天，已经无法改变了，可是只希望能把心里话说出来。只要那颗石头还在我心里，我就无法专心读别个科目。真的很对不起，我想我不曾让你为我光荣吧，只会让你失望。对不起。真的很想念你。希望你一切安好。放心，我会好好的过日子，我答应自己我不会轻易放弃。就算这条路真的很难走，我还是会坚持走下去，不会再有不好的想法。你也要好好过生活~

2011-02-10T05:43:00.000-08:00

最近的我有点压力。我很想让自己的成绩进步，但是这些带给我很大的压力。Test 1 的成绩还不错可是我就在那几分钟高兴。我很怕下一张的paper是否也能保持还是会一落千丈，我当时的心情就只有害怕。我也很想活在当下，可是我的心却做不到。新年过后，有midterm test...它是蛮难的一个科目。我的theory和understanding是比较差，所以我需要更多时间去了解它的concept.这考试就在昨天考，lecture跟我们讲theory占了整份考卷的30%,我真的很害怕自己考不好。当我翻开考卷时，发现考卷并不是我所想象的那么难，有点高兴。在高兴同时，我希望自己能score这份考卷。但是，当我有了这种想法，压力就开始来了。如果没有期望或期望很低，就没有推动力和成绩就不是很好；相反的，期望越高，跌倒会比平常来的更痛。今天朋友说我应该是有点做错了，当时的我真的很烦，连老师都看得出来。我真的很想把过去式的东西放下，好好把握这一刻，但是有时还是会在烦恼里打滚。放下是件不容易做到的事，可是我希望自己能够慢慢学习放下。。。

PPOU friend~

2011-01-19T17:45:00.000-08:00

I know her from the meditation class.She very funny and very smart,under JPA scholarship.Recently,ICE got organized event about go green and she also involved in that.She involved in paint.She told me i was her first customer.She said she not good in paint.I want she believe in herself,so however i also ask her paint for me.At first,she lack of confidence.I told her you never try,how you know you can't do it,trust yourself that you can do it.After that,she got confidence and i like the pattern that she draw very much.Through the dharma class,i know that we should give confidence,happy and hope to other people but that one just theoretical.That day,i feel like i succeed to do practical for it.The feeling is very different,hard to describe.Once you try,then you will know.希望自己能够给人希望，给人信心，给人快乐~

My Friends...

2011-01-19T08:13:00.000-08:00

My friends from ucsi now having A level's exam.Sometime they will feel emo and get homesick when they study for their exam.I also feel pity for them.I hope that they can pass A level with flying colour.I also don't know where they will go after the A level but i just want to appreciate every moment with them.Sometime,i think i am too over but i can't control myself.For instant,when they getting homesick or emo,then i feel like go there to persuade them and make them happy.I know all this will not forever but i also can't control myself from think of them.They very friendly and nice to chat and gather with them.Even i not really like to shopping but i like the feeling when go out with them and watch movie or sing k.Glad to know them and they very caring.Even the time gather with them is short but i really enjoy^_^

down...

2010-12-16T08:44:00.000-08:00

Sorry for who those visit my blog.I know most of my blog just talk about bad thing.I am trying to write something which can make you all happy after visit my blog.Sadly,i will write about bad thing again.Today whole day,i felt very down.I thinking why i can't be clever like other.Other people can understand but why i still can't get the concept.I am trying to understand but lecturer ask me don't ever memorize.I really trying my best not to memorize the concept but trying to understand.I don't understand why i tried hard to understand but still can't really understand about the concept.I almost cry after the class but i ask myself for what you cry?Tell myself that i can't cry,i need to be stronger.
Besides that,Electrical machine and drives is also one of the subject that make me confuse.Sometime i not understand and ask lecturer but she didn't get what i mean.I don't know why everything suddenly become like this.Last time,i was easily absorb what lecturer said but why nowadays change already?Am i old already or in the process to become old.I still remember that the doctor said it maybe related to my blood circulation and body condition.I still remember since secondary school,i always teacher or lecturer question but now i become quiet in the class and didn't ask question.Am i feel shy?I not suppose be like this,i really don't know what happen to me???
People got ask what happen to me but i just keep in my heart.I don't want people worry about me,just want to make them happy.One more reason is if i tell,i scare i will cry in front of my friend.

Most memorable day^_^

2010-12-07T08:12:00.000-08:00

I think today is the last day i went out with them.Before this,we went to watch movie and eat dinner together.The only thing that i haven't do with them is sing k...Finally,today we got chance to sing k together.Thanks for give me chance to sing with you.We went to neway which is located opposite of leisure mall.There not same like green box and red box that i ever go.The price is quite expensive.I think the service also very bad and no buffet at lunch hour some more.Luckily,during afternoon just few people sing k,so we can sing k till 7pm.This is first time i sing k for about 6 hour.I really enjoy the process.Shock Hong has a good voice,like singer.I think she might be a singer someday.I like the feeling we sing k together.We sang old song like andy lau and the latest song as well.I felt so happy when go out with them.
They will graduate soon and still don't know where will they proceed their degree yet.Even i feeling not so good but i still will wish them.I sure will be strong than before.Thanks a lot,my friend and so sorry cause you all waste money.Good Luck for your exam.I know all of you are smart student,so i believe that you all sure can do it.I really happy that have friend like you all.You all really bring a lot of joy and happiness for me.Hope that even next time our distance is far apart,but we still can keep in touch.Wish you all the best^_^

新生命^_^

2010-11-29T02:15:00.000-08:00

我们都好期待新生命的到来。每一次逛街，都会去婴儿的corner买些用品给将来出世的小baby.那时候，我才知道原来买婴儿的用品是多么开心的一件事啊。我最喜欢买的是袜子，觉得袜子是最可爱的。买袜子的时候，都会不禁的傻笑。朋友都会问我“你还好吗？”我只是哈哈大笑。20号是预产期。可是，我们等了好几天，依然没消息。这时让大家都替大嫂和baby担心。就在23号早上，二嫂终于感觉到肚子在痛了。二嫂一大清早就被推进产房里。我的哥哥也替他们母子俩担心。一方面是开心因为将要做爸爸了，另一方面又担心二嫂会受不了和万一baby有什么不测。直到下午，新生命终于来到这世界了。我变成姑姑了。欢迎您来到这世界。我们从下午等到晚上，二嫂终于从产房被推出来了。等了好几个小时，还以为有什么不测，真叫我们担心。
我是负责守夜的。在那里，看到好多小婴儿和听到婴儿的哭声。此外，看到有些人被推进产房，出来的时候就有小婴儿陪在她身边。看着哥哥的baby,觉得他好cute.他的头发也比一般baby的头发多。从中，我也学习不少。原来医院是比较鼓励baby喝人奶，奶罐是不被批准的。此外，人奶只要收藏在冰箱里，不管多久，只要弄热就还可以再用。护士都会先检查baby是否有小便和大便，才能出院。这主要是确保baby的排泄系统都在好的状况里。baby有小便可是却没有大便。那时，好担心baby必须留院。二嫂因第一次做妈妈，所以什么都不知道。妈妈就说要让baby大便，就必须喂他喝水。果然很有效，baby终于大便了，哈哈。。。yeah,baby终于可以出院了。

感受~

2010-09-13T11:41:00.000-07:00

今天看了某某人的blog和一些照片,突然有一种想哭的感觉。我一直安慰自己，没有东西是永恒的，所以没必要伤心。我要学会坚强地去面对事情。不想只活在过去，一直想念和他们在一起的日子。这只会让我更放不下他们。不管怎么样，我会默默地在一旁支持与关怀他们。此外，我也要笑着跟他们说再见。如果还有机会的话，我们明年再见面。。。我时时刻刻都会在等那一天的到来。亲爱的朋友，我们一起加油吧。。。再见^_^

放下会更快乐~

2010-08-31T09:23:00.000-07:00

放下压力—累与不累，取决于自己的心态

心灵的房间，不打扫就会落满灰尘。蒙尘的心，会变得灰色和迷茫。我们每天都要经历很多事情，开心的，不开心的，都在心里安家落户。心里的事情一多，就会变得杂乱无序，然后心也跟着乱起来。有些痛苦的情绪和不愉快的记忆，如果充斥在心里，就会使人委靡不振。所以，扫地除尘，能够使黯然的心变得亮堂；把事情理清楚，才能告别烦乱；把一些无谓的痛苦扔掉，快乐就有了更多更大的空间。
紧紧抓住不快乐的理由，无视快乐的理由，就是你总是觉得难受的原因了。

放下烦恼—快乐其实很简单

所谓练习微笑，不是机械地挪动你的面部表情，而是努力地改变你的心态，调节你的心情。学会平静地接受现实，学会对自己说声顺其自然，学会坦然地面对厄运，学会积极地看待人生，学会凡事都往好处想。这样，阳光就会流进心里来，驱走恐惧，驱走黑暗，驱走所有的阴霾。

快乐其实很简单，不要自己不快乐就可以了。

放下自卑—把自卑从你的字典里删去

不是每个人都可以成为伟人，但每个人都可以成为内心强大的人。内心的强大，能够稀释一切痛苦和哀愁；内心的强大，能够有效弥补你外在的不足；内心的强大，能够让你无所畏惧地走在大路上，感到自己的思想，高过所有的建筑和山峰！

相信自己，找准自己的位置，你同样可以拥有一个有价值的人生。

放下懒惰—<奋斗改变命运

不要一味地羡慕人家的绝活与绝招，通过恒久的努力，你也完全可以拥有。因为，把一个简单的动作练到出神入化，就是绝招；把一件平凡的小事做到炉火纯青，就是绝活。

提醒自己，记住自己的提醒，上进的你，快乐的你，健康的你，善良的你，一定会有一个灿烂的人生。

放下消极—绝望向左，希望向右

如果你想成为一个成功的人，那么，请为“最好的自己”加油吧，让积极打败消极，让高尚打败鄙陋，让真诚打败虚伪，让宽容打败褊狭，让快乐打败忧郁，让勤奋打败懒惰，让坚强打败脆弱，让伟大打败猥琐……只要你愿意，你完全可以一辈子都做最好的自己。没有谁能够左右胜负，除了你。自己的战争，你就是运筹帷幄的将军！

不是所有的梦想都能成为美好的现实，但美丽的梦想同样可以装点出生活的美丽。

放下抱怨—与其抱怨，不如努力

所有的失败都是为成功做准备。抱怨和泄气，只能阻碍成功向自己走来的步伐。放下抱怨，心平气和地接受失败，无疑是智者的姿态。
抱怨无法改变现状，拼搏才能带来希望。真的金子，只要自己不把自己埋没，只要一心想着闪光，就总有闪光的那一天。
纵观古今中外，很多人生的奇迹，都是那些最初拿了一手坏牌的人创造的。

不要总是烦恼生活。不要总以为生活辜负了你什么，其实，你跟别人拥有的一样多。

放下犹豫—立即行动，成功无限

认准了的事情，不要优柔寡断；选准了一个方向，就只管上路，不要回头。机遇就像闪电，只有快速果断才能将它捕获。
立即行动是所有成功人士共同的特质。如果你有什么好的想法，那就立即行动吧；如果你遇到了一个好的机遇，那就立即抓住吧。立即行动，成功无限！

有些人是必须忘记的，有些事是用来反省的，有些东西是不能不清理的。该放手时就放手，你才可以腾出手来，抓住原本属于你的快乐和幸福！

有些事情是不能等待的，一时的犹豫，留下的将是永远的遗憾！

放下狭隘—心宽，天地就宽

宽容是一种美德。宽容别人，其实也是给自己的心灵让路。只有在宽容的世界里，人，才能奏出和谐的生命>之歌！

要想没有偏见，就要创造一个宽容的社会。要想根除偏见，就要首先根除狭隘的思想。只有远离偏见，才有人与内心的和谐，人与人的和谐，人与社会的和谐。

我们不但要自己快乐，还要把自己的快乐分享给朋友、家人甚至素不相识的陌生人。因为分享快乐本身就是一种快乐，一种更高境界的快乐。

宽容是一种美德。宽容别人，其实也是给自己的心灵让路。只有在宽容的世界里，人，才能奏出和谐的生命之歌！

九月即将来临~

2010-08-31T09:16:00.000-07:00

今天是国庆日。。。过了12点，九月份就来临了。发现时间过得很快，转眼间只剩三个月，又要到2011年了。相聚的日子就是那么短暂，可是我觉得我有好好利用跟他们聚在一起的时间，所以不会有很大的遗憾。还记得那天我生病的时候，我全身无力。最终，我还是选择出去吃晚餐。其实，最主要的是想见见许久没见到的老朋友。最让我惊讶的是他们竟然从uk买souvenir送给我。真的很感激他们，当时的我其实有点感动，也许因为自己的身体状态不好，所以不是很会表达自己的心情。除此之外，我也很高兴能够收到你们从uk寄给我的post card。你们实在是对我太好了。我真的很高兴在菩提道路上能够认识你们这些佛友。我一定会好好珍惜你们所送我的礼物。我会永远祝福与支持你们（chu ka hae-korean)~

Nice day~

2010-08-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

After struggle hard for the test in these three weeks,finally i am free.During the exam week,i totally stress and just sleep for few hour.That time really tired,alomost everyday sleep at 3 a.m.My last test paper is in this week on wednesday.After the test,feel like want to release all the stress.The first thing that come in my mind is play badminton.Then,i start to suggest and invite friends to play.For me,three of them really hard to invite and i am so happy that they also want to join.I really scare my plan not perfect and then we can't play badminton.Thank you for give me chance to play with them.Thank you Diana for help us book the court also.I really enjoy in it and play with them really fun.That's why today can say is my nice day.Badminton is good for healthy and it can reduce my stress.,that's why badminton is my favourite sport.

Happy~

2010-08-26T08:27:00.000-07:00

hmm...Recently,i alway busy for the preparation for the test 1 and midterm test and study until late night.I really tried my best in the test and i will accept all the result that i got.I got my signal and system result this week and it really make me so surprise.During the test,i really don't know how to do and not sure whether i do correct or not.I just write what i understand only.I thought my test will be very bad and i am ready to drop the subject if the result is bad.Before the test,i think i really can't manage it,but i tell myself that i should give one more chance for myself.Besides,i also tell myself that i should try my best for this test and then depends on the result just decide whether drop or not.After the test,i really don't have mood to study other subject.When i saw my mark,i really feel touch and wanna cry already.Long time already i didn't get such result.At that moment,i really don't know what should i say and my mind suddenly blank.Thank you signal and system for make me more confident with myself and more believe in myself.Besides,this subject also prove that my way to study is correct and even i use a lot of my sleeping time to study also no waste.I think if i can score full mark,then that will be more better.I will try again next time.

觉得做人累了就看看.....

2010-08-04T09:11:00.000-07:00

学会沉默　　
有时候，你被人误解，你不想争辩，所以选择沈默。本来就

不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。却也有时候，你被最爱的人误解，你难过到不想争辩，也只有选择沈默。全世界都可以不懂你，但他应该懂，若他竟然不能懂，还有什么话可说?那么，不想说话，就不说吧，在多说无益的时候，也许沈默就是最好的解释。

至少平静　　
在你跌入人生谷底的时候，你身旁所有的人都告诉你：要坚强，而且要快乐。坚强是绝对需要的，但是快乐？在这种情形下，恐怕是太为难你了。毕竟，谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴？但是至少可以做到平静。平静地看待这件事，平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。平静，没有快乐，也没有不快乐。

不要想如果当初　　
人生是一条有无限多岔口的长路，永远在不停地做选择。如果只是选择吃炒面或炒饭，影响似乎不大，但选择读什么科系、做什么工作、结婚或不结婚、要不要有孩子，每一个选择都影响深远，而不同的选择也必定造就完全不一样的人生。生命中不可承受之情，就在于人生没有重来的机会啊。如果当初如何如何，现在就不会怎样怎样。。。这种充满怅然的喃喃自语，还是别再多说了吧。每一个岔口的选择其实没有真正的好与坏，只要把人生看成是自己。独一无二的创作，就不会频频回首如果当初做了不一样的选择。

保持单纯　　
因为思虑过多，所以常会把自己的人生复杂化了。明明是活在现在，却总是念念不忘着过去，又忧心忡忡着未来；坚持携带着过去、未来与现在同行，你的人生当然只有一片拖泥带水。而单纯是一种恩宠状态。单纯地以皮肤感受天气的变化，单纯地以鼻腔品尝雨后的青草香，单纯地以眼睛统摄远山近景如一幅画。单纯地活在当下。而当下其实无所谓是非真假。既然没有是非，就不必思虑；没有真假，就无须念念不忘又忧心忡忡。无是非真假，不就像在做梦一样了吗?是呀，就单纯地把你的人生当成梦境去执行吧。

控制情绪别浪费了
今天的你，是不开心的你，因为有人在言语间刺伤了你。你不喜欢吵架，所以你离开；可是你只是离开了那，却没有离开被那人伤害的情境，因此你愈想愈生气。愈有气，你就愈没有力气去理会别的事情，许多更该用心去做去想去处理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心烦意乱之中，被轻忽被漠视被省略了。因为，你只是一心一意地在生气。在情绪上做文章，这是对自己的浪费，而且是很坏的浪费。毕竟，生气也是要花力气的，而且生气一定伤元气。所以，聪明如你，别让情绪控制了你，当你又要生气之前，不妨轻声地提醒自己一句：“别浪费了。”

悄悄悄悄地回归平静　　
曾经有一段时间，你心情低落，甚至懒得拉开窗帘，看着窗外的阳光。因此你当然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的百合花。如此不知过了多久，总算有一天，你度过了心情的低潮，同时也想起了你的百合。天啊，可怜的花，它还活着吗？你战战兢兢地拉开窗帘，却见它迎风招摇，花颜可掬。原来在过去的这段日子里，你虽然忘了喂它喝水，老天却没忘了以雨露眷顾它呢。许多事物悄悄地在你的视线之外进行，而且悄悄地安排好了它们自己。天生万物，天养万物，一切其实无须担心。。。

W.H.Y???

2010-08-03T08:36:00.000-07:00

Today,feel quite boring...Then,find my friend and chat with her through facebook.She asked me one question which i also don't know the answer.She asked me what happen to me besides than sickness.Besides,she said i looked unhappy all the time.I just know about this from her.I really don't know the reason why i feel unhappy all the time?Is it since this sem????Am i feel depressed?Many question mark appear in my mind.I think nobody can tell me why i feel unhappy all the time!!!

一个男生可以等一个女生多久,女生又可以等一个男生多久~

2010-08-02T09:15:00.000-07:00

最近发现身边的朋友都失恋了。有些是因为感情不和而分手，有些因为想专心读书而选择先放弃爱情；有些其实还是很深爱着对方但却因为某些原因或因为不想再次被受伤害而不能在一起。这是我从网站看的文章，很想在这里跟大家分享。

希望你看到这篇文章的时候一切还没有晚，幸福不会时时等着你，爱你的人不是随时可以出现，请你学会珍惜。
　　看到一个深爱着你的人为你而改变，因为爱你，他收起他的顽固脾气；因为爱你，他把你的兴趣也变成是他的兴趣。
　　喜欢一个人是没有原因的，他无悔的付出，都认为是值得的，只要能和相爱的人在一起。
　　其实我们的身边都有一些这样的人，只是我们还没发现，最懂你的人，总是会一直的在你身边守护你，不让你有一丝的委屈；真正爱你的人，不会说许多爱你的话，却会做许多爱你的事。
　　如果你身边有这样的人的话，请你好好珍惜....常因为你的小体贴而感动，如果你一直对我好，我可能就会喜欢你，喜欢你的我，会毫不保留的付出，天真的认为有天你就会懂。
　　女生的心很容易受伤，所以我不轻易说出口，假如期望落空了，伤心难过很不好受，总希望你先说，如果你也犹豫不决，或许我们就这样错过，再来后悔为何当初不说。
　　摘不到的星星，总是最闪亮的，溜掉的小鱼，总是最美丽的。错过的电影，总是最好看的，失去的情人，总是最懂我的。
　　这世界上，每一个人都有个想要寻找的人，这个人，错过了，就再也找不回来。
　　如果爱上，就不要轻易放过机会。莽撞，可能使你后悔一阵子；怯懦，却可能使你一辈子后悔。没有经历过爱情的人生是不完整的，没有经历过痛苦的爱情是不深刻的。爱情使人生丰富，痛苦使爱情升华。
多少个早知道已经来不及！
早知道
你过的不好，我不会轻易让你离开
早知道
我爱你，必须常挂在嘴边，我不会吝啬说出它
早知道
　　喜欢你，必须过马路时拉着你的手，我不会介意伸出手来
早知道
　　我爱你，必须在吵架时依然讨你欢心，即使错在你，我可以颠倒是非
早知道
　　我爱你，爱与被爱，我不会选择，５０％我爱你，５０％你爱我，会选择７０％%我爱你，３０％你爱我，因为爱你多一点，你会倍感幸福
早知道
我爱你，是一种支持，我不会在你节食时说你无聊
早知道
上天安排你离开是一种错误，我不会让祂得逞
早知道
似曾相识，我会趋前问清
早知道....
早知道....
早知道....
　　多少个早知道，都在你离去后跟着出来，可是，再多的早知道都已经没用，都唤不回了..
　　「幸福」是一颗梦想的种子，需要用「生命的热情」去灌溉；「幸福」不是靠别人给的，而是要认真抓住、用心选择。
当还能拥有时，好好珍惜吧！
爱情如此，友情如此，亲情更是如此！
　　那最关心你的人，别只是永远被你排诸于外，当失去了，流泪又能做什么？爱的礼物既不能拿价格的多少来比算爱情强度的高低，它很可能是些不值钱的小小东西，或许是一片小小的枫叶，蕴含着柔情万千；或许是一颗小小的红豆，代表着相思无限。
　　愿大家都能珍惜身边的的幸福，就算目前是一个人，至少也好好去感受大家所传送的幸福原动力，只要快快乐乐，那未尝不是一种自在的幸福！
　　也许尚未发现幸福已经在身旁等待！为自己心里的小小花园灌溉……当还能拥有时, 好好珍惜吧…

为什么要等！要是真的爱她就不要放开她！！要不你会要后悔的！

感动和抱歉

2010-07-24T21:15:00.000-07:00

不知道从何时开始，我把心事都往心里藏，不想向别人倾诉。以前的我至少还会找学长说说心里话和谈天。也许觉得没人能帮到我吧，全部的问题都来自我自己，所以只能靠自己去打开那个结。最近的我就算想哭，也哭不出来，不知道为何会变这样。我的housemate发现我在这一个星期里好像很不开心，于是就约我出去运动，还骗我说是打羽毛球。这也不能责怪他，也许他知道只要是打羽毛球，我一定会去吧。后来我才发觉到，运动不只是可以舒解压力，还能让我们从中得到自信。后来，我的housemate和我的朋友在卡片里留下很多supportive word.。当时的我读了内容过后，自己真的说不出话来，眼泪自动从眼睛掉下来，真的很感动。那时的我终于把自己不开心的事也哭出来了。我真的很没用，说好了不喜欢别人为我操心的感觉，但是我每次只会害到别人为我担心。真的很抱歉。。。

佛学会

2010-07-03T20:00:00.000-07:00

这件事一直隐瞒在我心里。最近发现到自己对佛学会没有任何贡献。每一次都犯错，只会给大家添麻烦。学长们所吩咐的事，我都没把它们做得好。中秋节时，我是带动大家一起唱但是当时的我却忘词。迎新会的时候，又犯错，让大家都很难收场。现在的我很想帮但却又怕再次发生失误。希望得到他们的信任，但是觉得他们对我的期望越高，我又害怕再度令他们失望。我知道难免会有错误，但是那些错误使我更害怕去完成新的任务。太多问题都是发自于自己，应该好好想想不会让大家为难的方法。。。

2010-07-02T11:12:00.000-07:00

新的学期就要开始了，所有科目都会变得很难。我真的好担心自己是否能够度过这学期。其实我最担心的是母亲。我去读书以后，她就一个人待在家了。她也会因为如此而感到寂寞。这时候，我就会想起天上的爸爸。要是他还在，妈妈就不会感到孤单与寂寞了。妈妈因为家庭发生一些不开心的事而患上高血压。每当我看到报章上刊登高血压将会导致半身不遂，都会觉得很害怕。我希望不好的事情不要再发生了。自从发生那些不好的事，我每次都很害怕会再次发生。我觉得自己真的很没用，没能让她觉得幸福和为我感到骄傲，只会使她一而再，再而三地令她感到失望。真的很希望这学期能够拿到好的成绩，让她觉得高兴。。。

Worries

2010-06-17T09:34:00.000-07:00

Bad news alway happen in these few weeks.It is about mother and her employee.My mother always dream about bad things such as dream my family member which had passed away and dream about ghost in my house.It make me feel quite scary and worry.I really wish nothing bad will happen among my family member again.
Besides,problem among employee also exist.One of the employee want to quit his job because of her wife got serious high blood pressure and has difficulties in moving.So,he hope that he can find other job which is higher salary. Another one employee have asthma and suddenly enter hospital.My mother now worry about this two employee because nowadays it's too hard to find the employee which is honest and hardworking.I scare she will too worry and get serious high blood pressure.Haiz...hope everything will be fine soon~

一切都不可能是永久的 ~

2010-05-22T08:11:00.000-07:00

有件事真的让我出乎意料。。。他是我青梅竹马的朋友，我们已经是十多年的朋友。有一段期间，我们因小事而吵架。在那期间，我和他之间出现了绯闻。我自己也不清楚自己对他的感觉。直到有一段日子，我发现他一直逃避我。然后，我从朋友那儿才知道原来他误会我喜欢他。这件事情已经是很多年的事，但是我最近才知道，真迟钝。之后，因为他就快要到外州读书了。所以我的朋友帮我们制造很多机会，好让我们有空间谈谈自己的心里话。真的很感谢我的朋友。有位朋友让我有了勇气跟他说清楚。当时的我真的很紧张，不知从何开始。。。好不容易有了勇气，我很坦诚地告诉他我一直以来都不知道自己对他是怎么样的感觉，但是我告诉他我现在对他没感觉了。我以为我说出来后，心里就没有石头般的重量了，但是之后我的心有种悲伤的感觉。这也许是因为我的朋友即将要离开了，到不同的大学去吧。我知道一切的人，事，物都变了，不再像以前那样了。我深深地祝福我的朋友能得到他们想要的科系。
我想通过这个部落格告诉有位朋友，别把爱情看得比一切重要。我们也不能太依赖别人，得靠我们自己。为何现代的人都认为爱情比友谊更重要？为何要每次为情所困？难道没有了爱情，就不能活得开心吗? 爱一个人并不一定要拥有他，只要知道现在的他过着幸福的生活就好了。虽然被欺骗，是很伤心的事但是只要为自己心爱的人付出，都不会要求任何回报与不会在意自己对另一半的付出是否是值得的。希望你幸福。。。

下一站，幸福。。。

2010-04-26T23:45:00.000-07:00

yeah,终于看完了这部戏。这是我一直以来想要看的一部戏，但是因为在课业上很忙，所以只好在假期期间看咯。这部戏让人欢喜让人忧。它让我哭了好几次因为实在太感人了。从中，我才知道因太爱一个人所以必须放弃自己的真爱是很痛苦的。我猜想这不是每一个人可以做到的。虽然女主角也不想放弃以前曾有过的那段甜蜜的感情，但是为了救自己深爱的人，只好选择离开。就因为这样，她被别人误会，男主角也误以为她只是在玩弄他的感情。但她选择一直保持沉默，把真相藏在心最深处的地方。我以前也曾经被人误会，所以很清楚这种感觉。有时选择沉默是对的，当时的我选择了沉默，因为虽然你坦白也没有人相信你的。几年以后，他们再次相遇但是那男子已经失意了。当他会恢复记忆时，他一心只想报复，但是其实他还依然爱着那女孩，只是因为那女孩一直对他撒谎，不说真心话，无数次地让他失望。其实他们俩是相爱的，但因为之间有误会和不够坦白，所以彼此的关系不好。最终，因为再也看不下去俩人都躲躲逃逃，所以就帮他们制造机会。他们也借此机会向对方说一直隐瞒在心中的真心话。最后，他们也幸福快乐地在一起了。从这故事里，我才明白原来彼此的信任真的是很重要。当没有了信任，在一起也没有用，只会让彼此痛苦而已。虽然彼此的距离很远但是只要有信任和爱，那段爱情一定是很坚固的爱情。“不管到哪里也好，只要有对方的下一站，那一站一定是幸福的”。。。祝天下情人，我的朋友终成眷属~

Should smile or cry???

2010-04-16T10:17:00.000-07:00

Today is the day the result come out.I get to know from my friend that the result will come out today.I feel shock because i thought is the result will only come out on Saturday...Got one friend ask me to check immediately but i didn't do so because i haven't eat dinner yet.I scare if my result bad,sure i don't have appetite to eat.Actually no need to check already,i know where is my level already.One thing that i feel unexpected is i didn't get A for digital logic design,haha...i can do all for final exam but can't get A,funny right?I don't know why this alway happen on me???When i feel like i can do all and got confident to got A,but the final result alway make me disappointed.I had tried hard for the final exam but the result almost same only,haiz...i don't know should i smile or cry when i see my result.Smile because all pass and no subject fail?Cry because get to know many ee student got dean list for this sem and since foundation until now no any A?I should celebrate that all my friend got dean list and they all success already,just me only still at the same position and level,yeah...I feel like wanna cry but cry also useless.After you cry,the thing also will not change.Then,for what we cry when we face problem?I really stupid.My friend who alway play also better than me,feel happy for them.When i feel unhappy,i like to hide myself at the corner that nobody can see me.Thinking am i taking the right path?

Piano^_^

2010-03-29T19:30:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vj5pOCo70Gw
Recently,i fall in love with piano's tone.Everytime when i studying,i like to listen to the piano tone.They can reduce my stress,especially kenny g's music.All kenny g's music is sentimental and sometimes when i listen to kenny g's music,my tear will suddenly drop from my eyes.It's so weird right?I also don't know why his music can make me cry???
I learn piano since kindergarden.My mother force my sister and me to learn piano.My mother said last time she want to learn but no money to buy the piano and that's why she hope that we got chance to learn it.I learn until 12 years old only,then i give up.I don't know is my problem or teacher's problem.When we want to learn piano,better find the teacher who has good temper and will not alway emo.If my teacher's mood is not good,whenever you press wrong note,she will use the side of the ruler to hit my finger.My finger alway become red after the piano lesson,sometimes it's too pain and i cry.My mother said she also feel hurt when she saw the piano teacher hit me like that but she can't say anything.My sister is different.She play very well and she already grade 8.I think i am too easily to give up but now i hope that i can learn it again by myself.When mother come back from work,i hope that i can play song for her to make her happy and reduce her stress.She like to hear piano tone as well.I really don't want make her disappointed again~

Disappointed

2010-03-22T06:17:00.000-07:00

I feel great that can know you,madam.You are not same like other lecturer,you are the best among all the lecturer.I never eat with lecturer because some of them might think it is not good eat together with their student but you are the first lecturer eat with me and alway treat me.Madam,thanks for help me a lot in static but also really sorry for make you disappointed.I also don't know what to say besides sorry...I alway tell myself that i should not give up because you help me a lot.I really want to try my best and don't want to make you disappointed but i think i fail to do it.Even test 2 also bad even is the second chance and i don't know how to do some question for final exam...Actually,i hate myself why i alway just will make people feel disappointed but not proud of me,even my parent and i think my father at heaven also will feel disappointed when see me like this...sorry,everybody~

人生就像一场电影~

2010-03-07T00:29:00.000-08:00

人的一生，像乘坐一台公車。

我們知道它有起點和終點，卻無法預知沿途的經歷。

有的人行程長，有的人行程短。

有的人很從容，可以欣賞窗外的景色。

有的人很窘迫，總處於 推搡和擁擠之中。

然而與懸掛在車門上、隨時可能掉下去的人相比，似乎又感欣慰。

獲得舒適與優雅，座位是必不可少的機會，因此總被人們爭搶。

有的人很幸運，一上車就能落座。

有的人很倒楣，即使全車的人都坐下了，他還站著。

有時別處的座位不斷空出來，唯獨身邊這個毫無動靜。

而當你下定決心走向別處，剛才那個座位的人卻正好離開。

為了坐上或保住座位，有的人漠視良心，甚至傷害他人。

有的人卻因為這樣那樣的原因，不得不將到手的座位讓給他人。

有的人用了種種的方式，曆了長長的等待，終於可以坐下。

但這時他已經到站了。

下車的一刻，他回顧車廂，也許會為區區一個座位而感慨，自以為大徹大悟。

其實即使重新來過，他依然會去爭搶，因為有時如果不坐下，連站的位置都沒有。

除非你永遠不上車，而這並不由自己決定。

到站的人下了，車上的人還在。

依然熙熙攘攘，依然上上下下 ……

當生活是一種快樂的時候，生命就會充滿喜悅

當生活成了責任，生命就是一種奴隸。

但如果快樂和責任放在一起，快樂就是一種責任了。

活得好，有各種的理由，但社會上給我們的觀念

則是有錢走遍天下，無錢寸步難行。
卻成為我們人生在世的一種迷思了。

猶記新聞報導，有個富翁自覺什麼都擁有了

所以就跳樓自殺，但他似乎是缺少了快樂的動力。

有錢我們更需要快樂，工作是義務，但快樂則是責任了。

快樂要怎麼來呢？

1 、喘口氣吧！
人生有太多的行程，甚至很苦，何不讓自已喘一口氣呢
等待並非全無收穫，而是有了滿滿的準備。

2 、把握現在：
休息的時候別想工作，運動的時候別想家庭
這一刻做什麼就專心的做，分心會影響生活的樂趣變的不快樂。

3 、走出大自然：
面對工作的壓力，是否覺得青山綠水的重要了，如果快樂是你的責任，請走出大自然醫治你的煩惱吧！

4 、每日一笑：
人生不如意十之八九，我們必須相信有希望
雖然有苦有樂，但至少每天給自已一個笑容
看笑話，聽笑話，當笑話，讓自已的笑從今天開始。

5 、觀察幽默：
想想你在生活中，覺得哪位朋友，或哪個人你覺得
他很幽默的，請把他記下來，也順便學習
幽默可代替煩惱最好的解藥。

6 、尋找興趣：
每天除了工作，看電視，休息，似乎就沒有什麼特別的
活動，不免覺得生活很無聊，不如尋找一個興趣
讓自已學習，例如學樂器，看書，運動等等的活動
就不會覺得生活充斥著無聊了

7 、多親近歡樂的人
常常接觸你覺得溫馨、快樂的朋友也沈浸自已在快樂的人生當中。

祝福各位把快樂當做責任，把煩惱當做垃圾。

一起努力吧！

Digital logic design's lab

2010-03-06T18:55:00.000-08:00

This is the lab that i taking this sem.I am the only girl in the lab.The amount of student in the lab is odd number,so i need to do the lab alone.During this lab,i alway feel like want to cry because i alway cannot get the accurate result.The most tougher lab experiment is lab 8.I had tried many times for this lab experiment.First time,second time and third time also got error in the circuit.The fourth time just success but before that i also did silly mistake and luckily ming jian help me to check the error and finally it works.I want to say thank you to ming jian and john.They help me a lot in the lab.Sometime what john said is right.He ask me how i can pass all the subject if not understanding the concept.I also don't know.He let me realise that i just know to study without understanding.I also feel i am so stupid and why i cannot same like other people easily understand the concept.I feel sorry for alway disturb them during the lab.

领悟

2010-03-06T07:00:00.000-08:00

今天是我们的subject registration。当我register subject时，我发现要是我们能够把生活当作是时间表，也许自己也能够过着充实的生活。最近的生活很忙碌，再加上我不太会安排时间，这个学期真的很压力。我很希望这个学期能够快点完。然后下午时，学长们邀我玩badminton.我真的很久没玩badminton了。我发现自己的技术和体力也不想以前这么好了。除此之外，自己跑的速度也变慢了。真的很不好意思，害到传芳输了。以前的我当输的时候，我会很生气和感到伤心，但是我这次没伤心。我想这也许是因为我每次都输，已经习惯和麻痹了。是不是这个想法让我自己对自己没有信心？传芳看我打球的技术后，他就跟我讲“你一直注意你的脚步，那已经太慢了。”之后，我一直思考这个句子。我终于明白这个道理了。原来我在大学里的生活也是这样。当失败时，我一直去想到底是什么原因和一直跟别人做比较。这样的想法是正确的但是花了很多时间。当我知道原因是何在但是我还是无动于衷，这是没有用的。最大的敌人不是别人，而是你自己。。。

Osteorthritis

2010-01-23T00:01:00.000-08:00

From the X-Ray,my knee's structure is the second one shown in the diagram.My sister's boyfriend is a doctor.He said that my knee will not recover until forever,just can prevent it from injury again.Doctor gave me medicine and one of the medicine got side effect,that is it will hurt my 肠胃。After i eat,my stomach not feeling well and will faster get hungry.Sometimes,i also will loss appetite.Doctor also ask me to diet but when i stress,i still can't control myself from eat.I thought my knee will recover by injection even the injection really pain.I hope i still can play badminton like last time.I can find my confidence by playing badminton and i really enjoy when play it.

Dream~

2010-01-16T19:14:00.000-08:00

Yesterday,i was too tired.After come back from the night market at klang and once reach brother's house,i lying on the bed.Suddenly,i at bus station.I bought ticket and plan to go back to my hometown and i missed the bus.But,i am so surprise that i saw many old friend that i never meet them after the spm exam,such as siew fen,irene and so on.Some of them come back from other country and some come back from other nation.They all got their own talent now.They bringing biola,guitar and so on.I am so envy them,they all got their own talent but i still the same.I am so happy that can meet them again,haha~Actually,i feel very weird why they suddenly pop out in my mind and the dream looked like real...I think this dream will appear in my mind because i realise that friends around me had changed but i still at the same position.They change their study method and they all so hardwoking.I feel happy for them but feel sad for me.Why others can change but i still the same,just study only.I feel so horrible recently.I feel sleepy at 12 something but will automatically wake up at 2 or 3 and got mood to study until 4 or 5.It is very weird,right?The next day,i become blur only in the class.

Sharing

2009-12-28T08:04:00.000-08:00

I would like to share with you all here...Today,i learnt many thing from the dharma class.Teacher Zhen Gang share some story with us which i find it was quite meaningful.I think this story also related with me.
One day,mother ask first son go to buy oil but at the halfway her son fall down and the oil just left half only.When reach home,he tell his mother that i fell down but i still can keep half of the oil.Again,mother ask second son go to buy oil.He is also fall down but he is more negative thinking.He fell down and the oil also just left half only.He very sad and think himself is useless and angry at himself that he alway not doing good in everything.I think i am this type.The third son is more to positive thinking.Although he also fall down and the oil just half only but he tell his mother that he will do better than before,be careful and will not fall down again.
If i learn the spirit from the third son,i think i will not upset and feel disappointed again.This story tell us that we must face problem with positive thinking.Positive thinking is important to determine our manner.

unforgetable moment

2009-11-30T01:17:00.000-08:00

最近，有很多感触。。。这次放假真的发生很多不愉快的事。当我看到我婆婆的样子，我禁不住流泪。没想到那一通电话是她跟我讲的最后一句话。要是我知道那是最后一通电话，我一定会跟她说很多话。人生真的很奇妙。平时都没有病，但却突然患上严重的病。虽然知道婆婆的命不长了但是当看到她的病情有点好转，又让我们有希望。前一天，她还是还好好的，真没想到隔天她的病情变得更严重。之后，就离开了。当看见她想说话却不能够说话，真的很痛苦。我觉得我们的家有遗传高血压。我的妈妈也有，再加上目前的情况，我真的好怕。我不想再看到有不愉快的事发生了，累了。从当中，我体会不少。我们不知道何时会离开，也许就在明天我们就离开，所以要好好的珍惜每一份每一秒和珍惜眼前人。如此，我们死也不会有遗憾了。我现在唯一能做的就是加倍努力，不再让妈妈失望。我真的很想呈现最好的让她看。我也真的好希望有机会对她说：“娘，令儿终于成功做到了。”
有时当我失落时，真的好想痛苦一场，但是却哭不出来。有时也会想得到别人的关心但却不想别人为我担心，为我操心。我不想在别人的面前现出我脆搦的样子。我不喜欢别人为我担心。我也不知道我要的是什么

My feeling

2009-11-30T00:00:00.000-08:00

最近，有很多感触。。。这次放假真的发生很多不愉快的事。当我看到我婆婆的样子，我禁不住流泪。没想到那一通电话是她跟我讲的最后一句话。要是我知道那是最后一通电话，我一定会跟她说很多话。人生真的很奇妙。平时都没有病，但却突然患上严重的病。虽然知道婆婆的命不长了但是当看到

lesson

2009-11-08T05:53:00.000-08:00

Recently,my leg feel pain and easily to get tired.This is because i fell down in the camp.Since i fell down,i cannot stand for long time and need to walk properly.The thing that make me most scare is i can't play sport like last time.I hope i still can play badminton.It is my favourite sport.By playing badminton,.I really hope that i will fully recover and can walk smoothly.Sometimes,i will regret why i didn't follow mother's advice and join in the camp.If i hear her advice,then all those things will not happen on me.But i really learn many thing from the camp.I should blame myself.When i playing the tarzan jump,suppose open my eyes but i close my eyes to cross over the water.This is my false...

Training camp...part 2

2009-11-05T20:24:00.000-08:00

The day before we play extreme games,i am wondering about the challenging games that we will play on the next day.Will i success to pass through all?Is it something will happen on me?At that moment,many question mark appear in my mind.The day finally come.Before we play all those extreme games,it is a Buddhist hymns section.We all were so happy^_^...I very enjoy that moment.After that,we had lunch and preparing for the extreme games,that is flying fox and wall climbing.We play the flying fox first.I feel a bit scare that time because i got acrophobia.But when i know my partner is yun yi,then my heart feel more better.I also feel weird.I think maybe because she always encourage me not to be scare.This make me think of all the games that we played at sunway lagoon.I also scare to play all those extreme games but after yun yi said some word to persuade me,i feel better even scare also.Finally,i success to play all the games at sunway lagoon except tomahawk.Yun yi,thank you so much.Now is our turn to play flying fox.My leg feel no energy and speechless.When yun yi and i said 1,2,3,we suppose go down already.But after i said 1,2,3,my leg still at the same position.Yun yi can feel that i scare to jump,so she also didn't jump.She persuade me and ask me don't think so much and try to enjoy the process.Then,i try my best and finally we success.But yun yi so pity,i hold her very tight,and i think she not really enjoy because she can't breath well.Yun yi,really sorry.

When i stand on the chair at behind there,the chair is turn 360 degree,haha...i ask my leg stop vibrate but still vibrate.The moral value that i learnt from this game is don't just say only,need to take action too.After that,we play wall climbing.Before play this game,i already ask the trainer if i fail to climb even one stone,how?Then,the person just smile only.I observe how they climb and support them.When we climb,got trainer stand at beside and try to break down our confidence.Now is my turn.As i guess,i really fail.The trainer ask me just give up and don't waste other's time.I don't want to easily give up and i try again but still can't.Finally,i choose to give up because i really can't make it and i also don't want to waste other's time.At that moment,i feel i am useless and i can't stop the tear drop from my eyes.After for a while,john persuade me and tell me that he will help me climb until top later.I really feel touch when i hear that.Nobody had ever tell me like that kind of word.I feel shock and i am happy he as my friend.He really success climb till the top and i am happy for him.John,thank you.After that,we keep going to play other games such as tarzan jump and so on.During the games,yun yi stay beside me and encourage me.I thought i can success pass through all those games.During the tarzan jump,she also teach me the way to cross over.After that,i got more confidence to cross over it.I try my best and i thought i reach ground already,so i let the rope.Maybe of too confident,so i fail and fall in the water.I worry because my leg no feeling.Yun yi,yi wen and john help me a lot.

After this games,got other activity.I cannot walk properly,so can't join.Yun yi also didn't go but i not sure whether she want to accompany or she need to wake up early on the next day.She said she scare will be very tired and can't wake up early.In the hall,just left me and her.We share about the experience that we gain from the games.She said she also thought that she can't climb until the top but she tell herself that she sure can do it.Finally she success tob make it.I really admire her spirit.After that,i go to bath and just left her alone.I thought she will not scare of being alone.When i bathing,i hear someone was singing and i know is yun yi's voice.Her voice very sweet and i am really enjoy it.When i come out from the bathroom,i saw her slept already.Then,i just know that she scare and sing buddhist hymns to reduce her fear.I feel really sorry to her because i didn't take care of her and accompany her.If i know,i won't go to bath and accompany her till she sleep first.

The third day morning is the sharing time with rev.We all share moral values from all those games with rev.Different people got different experience and moral value.I learnt many thing from their sharing.Then,till my turn.I also share with rev same as what i write at the top.I tell rev that i feel i am useless because i alway fail.After that,rev got said some word that make me speechless,that is "you are so proud,you cannot fail?"This word make me think of all the things that i fail to make in my life.Actually,my ambition is forensic but i can't make it because my result not so good..Rev also said that跌倒就要勇敢地爬起来.I really agree with what rev said.After the camp,chuan fang got told me that rev said first time rev see me,she know that i loss of confidence.Tony also got told me that i too rely on friend,i know what he means.I also agree with him,i should not too rely on others.I learnt many lesson from the camp and i will remember the moment until forever and ever.

Training camp...Part 1

2009-11-04T21:51:00.000-08:00

Long time already i want to write about the training camp that i had last time but don't have free time.First of all,this camp really meaningful for me.From all the games,i saw myself.At first,i can't adapt myself with the environment.Maybe i scare of all those thing but i try to adapt.Tony as a leader.He give us job.Some people build tent,some people go to jungle find wood.After we done build the tent,then we were waiting for them who go to find wood.Finally,they come back and their leg got leech and bleeding.Even their leg is bleeding but they seem very happy.I also don't know why,haha...After done all the job,we were preparing for the lunch.We use fire to cook.At begin,we feel hard to light up the fire because we still don't know the skill.Practice make perfect,we practice every day and finally we knew the skill already.The first game that we playes is rope skipping.I don't know how to play but yen got taught us the way to jump.The instruction for this game is all the group member must success to jump continously.If any group member fail,we need to play again.I am the one that alway fail but i tell myself that i will never give up and finally i success.I feel very happy even the feet very pain.This game is the games that cause me proud of myself among all the games.The moral value for this game is cooperation is important between the group member and we should encourage each other.When i was kid,i alway see people play this game and ask myself why they can do but i can't do. After game section,it's is my favourite section,that is buddhist hyms section,hehe.We sang many song.I love to sing buddhist hyms and old song.Their lyric meaningful,sometimes will talk about our life... 就是这温暖的手让我觉得温暖和感受到真诚的友谊。她不断地鼓励着我。谢谢你，韵怡。我会一直记得你的教诲。

surprise~_~

2009-11-04T21:29:00.000-08:00

After the exam,i will go back hometown but i still don't know when to go back.Lecture told me that my test 2 paper lost,then i need to do make-up test.The make-up test's date and time also has been set already,that is on monday.But before the c pro exam,i had received message from lecture and she said that my paper was found.That time i don't know whether i should be happy or not...Anyway,i should be happy just right because can go back earlier,hehe.My mother told me that my sister got job already and will start to work on sunday.After i heard it,i feel a bit sad but feel happy for my sister because finally she got job already.Then i buy ticket and i had decided the date when to go back.
I want to give my mother surprise.So,i didn't tell my mother that when will i go back.I just tell my sister only and we plan together.My mother alway call me because she want to know when i just go back.I still didn't tell her.Finally,i reach my hometown.when i had a lunch with my sister,my mother call me again and i said now having lunch.She still don't know that i came back,haha...After lunch,we plan go to her working place and make her feel shocked.When she saw me,she feel shocked and nearly cry.I like that moment and i will remember it until forever.

Exam week

2009-10-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

Recently is exam week.I am so stress and every night will feel hungry because i cannot eat too full for dinner.If too full,will feel sleepy.When i feel stress,i will eat a lot of food.I know this way cannot reduce stress but i still can't control and i hope i can change this habit next time.The last exam is c programming.I see time wrongly,i thought is exam at 9 a.m but actually is at 3p.m.That's why i feel weird when i reach library but didn't see any of my friend.All just like older than me,hehe^_^I wake up at 5 something to study.i scare not enough sleep will become blur in the exam.Luckily,evon let me rest at her house for a while,then i just can fully concentrate on the exam.It's also good that i see the time wrongly because i can finish study more earlier and can recall back the previous chapter.I had try my best in c pro but i didn't expect too high also,perhaps got at least B.I scare will got c because the credit hour is 4.It is the highest credit among all the subject.After the exam,by right i should be happy but i had some weird feeling.I think my time management is not good.i hope i can pass this sem and manage my time well in next sem.As yun yi said,we should try our best in every test and exam,don't always hope that will got 2nd chance.We must appreciate the chance that we have,put more effort and try our best on it...

2009-10-11T05:58:00.000-07:00

Today,i read my friend's blog...she seems like not really happy at uk.I am sad to hear that she is not happy.Friend,i hope that you will get well soon...may you be well and happy^.^gambate,i will alway stand beside you...